October Blues and Other Stuff

So October...hee.
So far, Mum is hanging in there. She has good days and bad.
I'm not so thrilled about the cold weather that is setting in...eh, but what can you do? Seems to happen every year whether you want it to or not.

We had Alizandra's birthday party. My baby is 5 now!
How the years fly by...hmmmm.
Curtis and Hazel came out, which was pretty nice.

Devon had his races. That boy can fly like the wind.
2.2 km's like it was nothing!! It was absolutely amazing to be there and see it all happen. I'm so super proud of him.

I'm trucking away and doing what I have to do.
Eric is playing poker a lot, and I'm helping out with mum and looking for work. Some days it feels like barking up an old tree...and others I'm just so glad to be here.

It's rather odd coming back home...home...if I can call it that.
The buildings are the same, and some of the faces are the same...and at night, when I go for a walk, it feels the same as it used to.
But during the day with the hustle, it's like being in a place that you know...but don't really recognize any more.

Any way....
All is well here.

movinÈ

We made the big move...wow.
It ended up being a majorly long (but super fun) weekend.
Went to Liskeard for the turkey dinner and catch-up with Jacquie. Great times with both.
Dave came down to help us with the move. I got to see a bit of what he does-much fun, but not for me ;)
Eric got to see his brother (good time I hear- but since I wasnt there its just hear-say)
Any way, since then we have been just settling in. Looking at jobs here and there, but mostly just catching our breath and getting a feel for what is next.
I am really enjoying that whole returning to old ground feeling. And waiting for the next big step.
That is all for tonight. I will have pics for the next post cuz it will be after Alizandras birthday party...She will be 5!!

Almost...

I can barely believe that it's almost 2 years since Eric and I became a "couple" LMAO...some days it seems like we've been together for years and years...and other times (like when I haven't seen him in a while) it's like the first date all over again.
He still gives me butterflies and makes me blush :) awwwwww.
I don't know what life would have been like without him...but I'm sure glad he won his bet and bought me Vietnamese fooooood...hee hee...and I like Kung Fu flicks.
So...here's to us babe...only a few more days til the two year mark.
And MWA...I love you xoxoxo

Herc & Urkle

Happiness and unhappiness are in fact one.
Only the Illusion of time seperates them.
~Eckhart Tolle
Failure lies concealed in every success, and success in every failure.
In this world, which is to say on the level of form, everybody "fails" sooner or later, of course, and every achievment eventaully comes to naught. All forms are impermanent.

Direct Quotes from "Practicing the Power of Now" ~Eckhart Tolle.

There are those who do not "believe" in your transformation.
They do not believe because they "CAN NOT".
They can not...because to believe that you can "change" or you can become a "better person" suggest their own weakness.
In truth, the only people who will support you on your journey of enlightenment are those who are already there, or those travelling with you.
All the "weak of mind" will doubt and find flaw in your efforts.
They will say things to hurt you, to your face or behind your back.
They will attempt to do things to cause you to falter, and when you do; They will point and say "aha...see..you have not changed"

But this is no reason to not move forward!
Let them go...
Continue on your journey, and think of them with love instead of allowing them, their thoughts, actions or words to hold you back or make you feel guilty for wanting better for yourself.
In the end, they may return to your life...or they may not.

Another Day, 'Nother dime

Wow, life sure has done a dramatic "swing-around-the-rosie" in the last few weeks!
Like seriously...I'm living on faith right now!
So mum was in the hospital...dramatic and scary for those few days.
I took a week off work to go down and help out her and kids, only to discover that the issues are much deeper then we originally had thought.
So...
Now Eric and I are packing and moving AGAIN!!
It's been really hard giving notice here.
I really have grown to enjoy the people I work with. I know that I will keep in touch with a couple of them, so that's not so heart breaking....but there is a shift in the way we are treated. That makes me sad.
If I had a choice, I would not be leaving this way, this fast.
Eric and I had been contemplating splitting a few times for various reasons, but had determined to stay for at least a year.
I guess the job had grown on us :)
But now...there is no options really.
I need my family to come first!
So it's a little topsy-turvy. Packing, cleaning, organizing, making plans...
The next few months will be a little chaotic and probably financially devastating...but I have faith that this is the right thing to do, for the right reasons.
I also have complete faith that we will land on our feet the way we are supposed to.
These things only happen to us to make us stronger!!
It's all good...stressful, but good!! :)
We will be kissing Ottawa bye-bye in a few short weeks. Then we will be learning a new city, a new job, and opening the next chapter of our lives.
Thank goodness things happen for a reason!!